this seriously just happened...

I caved.  I caved after 4 days.  I am a full-time student guys, I am at my house now...that's what I do.  I sit and read and study and that's it.  Smoking was my crutch.  I quit smoking when I decided that instead of working at some piece of shit job, I would go to school full-time and finish what I started many years ago.  I decided at 27 years old, that this was my plan.....school.  Through school, I am going to "figure it all out".

I caved.  I went to Walgreens 20 minutes ago to buy a pack of cigarettes.  As I stood in line, to buy a pack of cigs.....an old woman slowly came up behind me with her Walgreens goods.  I just wanted my Camel Lights and to get the fuck out of there.  I just wanted a cigarette.  For a second I looked a the nicotine gum, but then said eff it.  I asked for my cigs and this woman....of about 80....said "hunny...I just lost a lung to those....I know it's hard....I have an oxygen tank....it's not worth it"

I SWEAR TO GOD THIS JUST HAPPENED.

In 27 years, nobody has ever preached to me in line at a store about quitting smoking.  EVER.    Nobody has ever just randomly told me that smoking is bad besides my sister, a random friend and my doctor.  

This women stood behind me in line at Walgreens, 4 days after I quit smoking....and told me that she lost a fucking lung from smoking.  She had the oxygen tank in her Walgreens shopping cart.  She had no idea that I am in the middle of something a lot of people decide to do and struggle with throughout their entire lives.

The woman at the counter gave me a look like "lady, smoking is ridiculous". 

So...I walked out of Walgreens WITHOUT the pack of cigarettes.

Fucking fuck fuck fuckers.

Smoking is ridiculous.

Jamie.